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the exact opposite of my very nature. I couldn't possibly harm anyone, even if I wanted to. (I was really telling the truth).

He continued to plead and continued to place more and more meney on the table. I continued to insist that I could never de such a thing under any circumstance whatsoever. When he finally realized that I meant what I said, he was at the point of tears, and added, "Please forgive me; I had hoped so much that you would help me",

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and went to

I went up to my room he did not follow me bed, thinking of him all night, and feeling sorry that I could not help him. He was afflicted with a sexual need which had to be satisfied in some manner. I had often read of people who were obsessed by a masochistic complex of some sort, but this was the first time I had ever had a personal contact with such a person. My biggest thrill as a transvestite, however, is when I am escorted to a restaurant er a night olub, and my escort is a charming gentleman. I think this is the dream of every TV, but I don t know many who have ever actually experienced it, On the few occasions that I have had these wonderful adventures, the gentleman always knew beforehand that I was a transvestite and not a real woman. However, I was a "real" woman to him for tha evening, and was similarly regarded as one. This is really the zenith of all TV thrills, and I live these experiences over and over again in reverie after each such event While I am dancing under soft strains of heavenly music at the Hawaiian Room at the Lexington Hotel or under the stars in the open terrace of the Tavern-on-the-Green in Central Park, or doing the cha-cha in the Grill Room of the Hotel Taft--whenever these thrilling events occur, I am actually an entirely different person in an exotic and most wonderful world I am really a woman, not beautiful- but perhaps feminine and attractive enough for a handsome man to want to dance with me, in public places. These are the moments I live for and longingly I await the next event. They are much too few and far between.

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I have never "picked up" anyone on the street, nor in a bar- I would never do that. Anyone I have met has been through knowing friends or at the resort or through the hotel in which I stay.